Tuesday, July 13, 2004

oh so glamourous Omaha

i'm leaving for Omaha on Wednesday to compete for Int'L Ms. Bootblack... and i'm sick with nerves. not puking sick, but darned close...

i have laundry to do, and cleaning...

i'm gonna miss my kittens... i'm not going to be able to sleep until this is ALL OVER...

Friday, July 09, 2004

Everything happens for a reason

I've been hearing that a lot lately "Everything happens for a reason." It's kind of the less-cheesy way to say "When life hands you lemons, make lemonade!" because it's not something you say to someone who just won the $145 Million Powerball. It's something you say to someone who's just been dumped, or had a family member die, or didn't get a promotion.

Which is another way for me to say that I didn't get the promotion. I lost out to someone who already lives in Minneapolis and who is already in a position higher than me. Actually, for the guy that got hired, it's a lateral move. When Bill was telling me that I didn't get it and why, Bill made me think that he had pretty much already picked this guy even before I had my interview (I, of course being out of state, was last to be interviewed). So, it's not so much that I was beat, it was that I was beat out before I'd even heard about the race.

So, I'm not bitter or upset. Heck, it now just means that I don't have to move out of state. But the downside is that, to prepare for the move, I've been mentally gearing up for having to move-- where will I live, what kinds of clubs would I like to hang out at, where are the good coffee shops... I had so immersed myself in that role, so to speak, that I now have to re-gear for Milwaukee. I no longer have to tack on five hours of drive time to get anywhere south of me.

an odd dilemma...